I frequently find myself awake at odd hours of the night. Either getting something to eat, laughing at something that was playing on the tv or, like this time, waking up because I feel a bit of sickness coming on. So I just updated my status stating I was feeling sick and started watching Parks and Recreation on Netflix.
Soon after, I get a text from my friend say, “you are like a Degrassi: The Next Generation character”. Because of how unprovoked that I was, I just replied simply “how”? She then replied, “You are a fully dynamic personality where you are always evolving, and the J. from season 3 is not the same in season 5”.
I was really moved by this because she could see the effort I put into constantly growing, and changing. I try to improve on something everyday, even if it is something small, I put the effort in. But, like many other people in this world, I do not readily see the growth that I have actually made, and often beat myself up for not being where I would like to be as a person and a dancer. So, for someone to see that growth in me means a lot! It was like she inadvertently held up a picture of me from 2 years ago and a mirror in front of my face and said, “Look! You’ve made a hell of a lot of progress! You are not the same person as before!”
And I see now. I gotta be more confident in my ability!
[[Ciao for Now]]